A notice to all

Im not gonna blog too often.... makes it become sianz.... i think I'll do it as and when I like it. Starting from yesterday, I felt that nothing exactly was interesting. All there ever would be is study and study and nothing more. Beats the crap out of me, I hate seeing another book but I'll do it for future's sake and nothing more. I'll make sure karang guni man pays me more than $5 for all my papers and books!!!!

Well anyway, school today was soooo..... boring. Talked lots of rubbish with Khairul on physics. Then nothing more, didnt get shot by Liu. Hahahas..... Anyway, im juz so sick of studying and i wanna bond with my com after the Os and find a new game... Os results out so early!!!!! not enough time to relax. That marks the day of my future, really!!! Dun remind me anything bout the results after the Os... im really gonna play myslef out like spooking myself with silent hill or maybe juz finding a job. When i heard that results out so early, i would think if the results will spoil my week or make my week. Anyway, my auntie always says this when i tell her i wanna get a job: "Winwin going to work?? How can a baby work???" Then i say to myself, lost............

Anyway, I am now taking a break playing GTA San Andreas, collecting all red colour bikes including the pizza man's bike. Hahas.....

Reminder: Blogging would be less often!!!!! Only when i like it.

Day Spoiled

A sequence of spoiler events occured today. I wouldnt actually say its alot... only 2. I'll juz keep it short...

Where: In school during physics
What time: 9+ am
What happen: Liu took mine and Khairul's paper for checking.
Why: Cuz he thought we cheated
What really happen: We juz talked during a test
Consequences: I didnt cheat, i dun care if he tears my paper or shout at us.
Moral: Dont talk to any1 during a test. + liu is unreasonable

Then came the second 1. After tuition, i went to sleep then after that....

Where: At prayer meeting
What time: 9+ pm
What happen: Tim fell down and was badly injured
Why: Drain was open, no cover
What actually happen: Skidded and fell cuz of that
Conseqences: Mood for catching spoiled, his dad red hot, no more catching...
Moral: Dont play catching at night.

Cuz of these 2 events, my day was ruined. I dun hate liu but i think he is too unreasonable bout that. Anyway, i dun really care if he throws me out of his lesson, tear my paper or shout at my year but it will make me loathe his lessons. Moreover, im not alone. Then the second, Chester, Ernest and Tim will be grounded from playing at night liao. If they would be, so would I. Cant really study liao, got not much mood. To tearing my time table, I'll take that into consideration. But i dun study for the sake of my teachers or parents, its my future so i wont give a dam bout them liao.

The sky turns grey, the tears stream down from the sky and I lie in the grass dreaming... and so on..... forever more.......

A normal day

Man... i juz keep saying the same things over and over again. Its juz the same in school, no changes, more tests more homework, and MORE....problems.... The day is juz too boring and study after study makes me sick. I wanna take a permanent rest from the Os and im sure that goes the same for every1. The digimon book Azri had wasnt what i had in mind, i wanted the one about the first series!!!

Anyway, I went for lunch at IMM with my mum and bro and saw Zihao, ngoh, Kelvin and some others.. Then went for tuition. have to go twice..... Juz a normal day!!!

Relaxing day

Hahas... im not that much in a mood to study today. I tired studying in school during the free periods. I concentrated enough for today, though i will start work later 2night. Anyway, sch today was juz as per normal.

After coming home. headed for the com and watch Shaman king until now. Hahas... so nice... watching how Pailong was killed to be a zombie serving Tao Jun.... hahas... truly a nice anime!!!! Im looking forward to Azri bringing his Digimon book tomorrow. Juz love digimon too, all the monsters so cute....

Anyway, im slacking for now.... wheee!!!!

Stresser and more stress

Sch today was juz as per normal, trying to study and hope to make an improvement in what i do. Anyway, so many of u are trying to find out who X is...im sorry i cant tell or i cant let u know cuz i think its bad to gossip and backstab and for friendship sake, i cant afford to let u guys know. Also, juz dun try finding out plz cuz i feel it juz isnt right. I used X is becuz i dun wan all of u to start hating that person or accuse me for gossip.... so juz dun try knowing.

Anyway, im loaded with homework to the extent that i havent have got time to spare even as im typing now. After this thing, im going to start on my english homework, i hate english homework.

Haha... i actually wanna ratter on but i havent got time so... sry....

A day...

Well, every day is juz like the same. Anyway, Xinmin.... ur so smart to guess it correctly. Thought it is quite hard to know since i dun seem to dislike that person. Anyway, please keep it a secret.. dun tell any1.. hahas.... Anyway, i wont mention X again cuz X really is irritating, behave like the smartest person on eath, always showing off. I wonder whether its my fault for influencing X cuz he wasnt like this last time. I also think its not very nice to stab sum1 from the back so i will from now on shut up. I also actually do want X to change but its abit impossible so i will juz get on with my life and act like life is normal.

Anyway, sch is juz as per normal and nothing interesting but every day of sch makes me fear the Os more. Sien Quan juz keeps getting caught for doing sumthing in the lab.. hahas... Zihao gets caught for eating M&Ms hahas.... Then Mr Liu shout at Shanker across the whole canteen and made every1 shut up!!! that was fun.....he deserved it for not coming to school anyway and come after lesson is over.......

Yup, thats bout it.... I juz hate irritating ppl and O lvls!!!!!!

What am i doing???

Yup.. follow my title. I really dunno what im doing. Im juz not fufiling my time table especially for my humanities. With 1 less subject, i have to rely heavily on the others but humans... i dun follow my time table for that and i juz keep failing test and ..ARRGGHHH!!!!! what am i doing? Seriously im now a lost soul.

I tell myself i cant afford to waste anymore time but i juz am. Cant keep up with what im doing now cuz i dunno what im doing.... Im juz getting dumb as days go by........ My whole class too doesnt really seem bothered by the Os. Is that what affects me???

Nothing...

Well... nothting in particular happened today. Sch juz as normal and also very boring. I felt so tired and sleep for 3 hours and waste so much time. Juz had another dream about sch.. then last night, a dream that i fought a robber and we fight with paper cutter and i woke up and found my teeth sunk on the pillow....

Juz wonndering how to study humanities like geog....

Haiz.....

2 sickening things happened. Firstly, X irritated me and caused me to think more bout my oral as well as think that X is more selfish, only care bout oneself bout not bother bout others. If u read my blog earlier i mentioned something about X though I did not say who it was. Another thing that made me feel painful was i forced myself to tell liang lao shi that im not retaking MT and she said " If you think that u cant improve or only move up by 1 grade, I suggest you put in your effort in your other subjects and do well for the others. No one can tell if the end of yr paper is going to be hard." So anyway, i decided not to retake.

I am now being bugged by the oral results and really dun wanna get another lousy grade for english. CL thrown away, now have to rely on english. Anyway, while going home, Me, Zihao, Quan, Xue, Jestyn, played the Narnia game and, hahahaha.....Yuxue kena!! Wondering what would happen to him if he went in and really disappeared! Quan say he will faint.

Anyway, going to push myself at this final moment and really hope to do well for oral...Xinmin the highest for our group and the worst thing is that she is juz ahead of me.... scared that my results get pulled down by her cuz thats her chance to slaughter me. So, going to study hard now!

Dooms day

Well... sch today was juz as normal juz that liang lao shi came to me after sch and ask me to decide to retake or not, well..... i think i better not retake cuz i only can push it 1 grade up and risk my other subjects. Not worth it.

Then at 2, oral english begins. Haha... we sort of cheated but anyway, 2 examiners with such a stern face. Ang said our room was the strict 1. Juz pray that i can get a distinction for english oral cuz my CL already in the drain i dun want the same for eng. Overheard the examiners saying Xinmin was a very good candidate....

Came home and sleep, too tired to go tuition.....

Pissing Day

Havent pass up my consent form to retake or not. Still wondering whether to retake or not. Well, english oral is coming soon had the worst practise ever. I am scared actually and also i mention b4 bout X in my earlier part of my blog. (Maybe i did, or didnt.) Anyway, X juz luv to talk bout himself and no1 else. No wonder he is being disliked and is coming up to become another bragger.

Anyway, thats no. 1 thing that piss me off. Second was oral practice. Went with Yun yu, Evelyn, Teresa, Xinmin, Sufyan. During practice, 2 extras, Vernon and uthaya were so dam irritating and my oral practice was not successful, total waste of time. Teresa was talking to shanker and keep laughing, shanker kept interupting with rubbish, Vernon gave rubbish marks and asked nonsensical convo qns. This practice was enough to seriously piss me off however, i kept calm. wasted my time. Hope i dont get examiners like that tmr!!

Already not in a very gd mood and this kind of thing can still go on. To make up for that time, i got to study now like mad to fufill my time table.

:)

Oh... thxs to those who brighten my day. I went to school quite gloomy and then my classmates well.... made me back to normal.... hahaz. Thxs to u all.

Nothing interesting actually juz that after physics, walked home with Sq, Yx, Sufyan, Ronnie, and basically myself. Haha...Sq jammed the lift when Yu Xue going to Ronnie's hse.... hahaha. Imagine 2 little kiddies stuck in the lift! Then they came down to 1st storey and chase us... I kena caught while Quan hide.

Currently doing my sch hw and juz thinking of resitting the Os without attending lessons... though confirm get F9...

Sorry

Too busy to blog. Have to study. Will put in only when I got the mood to do so.

Still sad

Haiz..... i felt im 1 of the worst... so many got better than I. 1 less subject for L1R5..... if i cant manage other subjects well..... im a goner. Had a little oral practice 2day then went for tuition. I feel theres no more time but i dunno what to do... Im still at a loss but my mum says my CL results are gd enough to get to JC. How to count such a huge no. in L1R5? Very Afraid of the prelims too cuz if i get higher than 19, im gonna lose hope in the Os and ppl who never see me cry b4 may get a chance to do so......

Really pushing myself hard...

No more playtime!

Haiz...... dunno what to say for CL results. Wondered to retake or not. Though i didnt do as well ask i thought, parents are satisfied, CL teacher expected me to get D7 or E8 as I NEVER in my sec 3 and 4 have i passed CL. I must say I cant retake anymore as I saw that i juz passed my oral, muz be reading. No point retaking especially when i didnt do well for oral. If i dun retake i muz do as well as Azri (Dream on). I felt quite upset though again they all juz mocked at those who didnt do well as they went off happily with 3s and 4s. Those whom i thought get C got a B. 4 or 5 who i thought get a B get a C.

I must say truthfully i wanted to cry but couldnt cuz im sick. Thx to CL teacher's encouragement, i didnt. As only 1 failure in the whole sch, thank God i scrape through by passing. Needless to say, for those who dunno my marks can already guess how much I got. Cant afford to play soccer with them cuz I have to study full speed liaoz......

Gloomy and boring and...haiz.....

Quite boring 2day..... didnt feel like playing or studying.... suddenly i just felt quite sad. Dun wanna say what made me upset or what happen for i might die if i open my mouth. Juz woke up in the morning and juz felt quite.... haiz....

I just woke up in the morning and look around... im at home... though national day sang yesterday this is home truly... but whats juz around me? myself, my bed and my pillows and no1 else. Felt quite lonely and.... well.... im all by myself. Lonely...yup, thats what i felt. i thought back of my whole secondary sch life and concluded... im neither here nor there, im not unwanted nor wanted. You get what i mean??? A strange loneliness I've never felt b4 though u all may juz say " Hey you're not alone, Im your friend..." and stuff like that but thats not the point. I just feel this emotion can never be described. I looked back and thought, I always seem happy in school but I'm not as happy inside. Though im a guy and seem happy all the time, im also a human... izzit ok to cry? I wont force myself to be happy all the time cuz i dun wanna cheat myself.

Anyway... Im now juz trying to relax and of cuz feel tensed when I picture myself taking my results.... Whether i really cry or smile depends on tomorrow.

Happy Birthday Singapore

Well....A little boring today. Woke up in the MORNING cuz of my clogged nose. Bye Bye to sore throat and flu but hello to cough and block nose. Morning as in 3.00am feeling very energetic and guess what dumb thing i did? A-Math...How stupid! Till bout 4.30 then i went back and sleep. Again i dreamnt bout erm....me, my bro, a mysterious person (cant say who), and another mysterious person called Michelle...who on earth is that?????? Dun wanna go into detail but dreaming of ppl i dun even know..... this is funny!

Woke up early in the morning feeling so cold (of cuz...its raining) then slack and study a bit for the whole day. Then after that went to chester's house and of cuz ernest asked me to bring the Silent Hill PS1 game... then our families watched NDP till 8+. I must say its a very brillant performance. Then gals occupy the TV till 10+...so i only play for like 15mins of Silent Hill. Wahahahaha.... what a perfect time to play this game, exceptionally Sp00ky game. Then the 2 of them keep hiding their faces, sort of made me wanna laugh but also i must say quite scary like suddenly and monster juz fly in and grab u..wahaha what a lovely game, guts testing. I was scared at first but not with lights on and ppl around....

30% day spoiled cuz im sick and another 20% cuz of... Argghhhh CL Os results!!!!! gonna watch Shaman King at 11.30........ Hope my mum stop telling others bout my dream of CL results to others..... hahaha

Day RUINED

Haiz...... what a day...spoiled by juz myself. Had such a terrible flu, sore throat, runny nose. Spoiled my mood for the WHOLE morning and afternoon. My plans for eating chips and cookies just dashed by these virus. Was too frustrated and cant vent my anger anywhere especially went i cant even have a peaceful sleep cuz of my throat....oh well, juz hope to be well by tmr. Im also scared by my CL results coming back on friday. Lol...no more dreams...I hope...

Juz felt that 2day in sch would have been better if i could talk more. Now i wonder if i can go tuition or not. I look back and think how my tuition that i thought was so discreet and like no1 knew bout it (or so i thought) occupied by 1/2 or bout there by the S cube. Oh well..... At least more company.

Thats bout all except i feel quite unhappy 2day.

A starting to get sick day

Oh... starting to have a sore throat..hope to get well tmr. Its the carnival tmr and i think its confining ppl especially stations. Anyway, what can we buy with 4 $0.50 coupons. Oh well.... today is sure boring maybe cuz of my throat.

For yesterday and today

Yesterday, I was too busy to write anything. Was quite busy yesterday.... Had to attend 2 tuition in a row and then study like.... Then went for prayer meeting and then after that play soccer.... EVERY night when i sleep i always HAVE dreams. Its always bad. I dreamt that Mr Li YunDong gave our CL 'O' lvl results out in class and every1 got A1 except for me and Sean. I got C6 and Sean got E8. Fantastic dream eh?

Then today also another dream. after coming back from chruch, i went to sleep. Dreamt that whole toh guan road buildings collapsed except for my side one. All opposite the main road buildings collapse like UNO Stacko. Then worse thing was only me, my bro and my mum at home. The earthquake didnt affect our
side or harm us but we were so worried for others. Then suddenly, my cousin and another uncle from KL just appeared in our door and could still joke. Suddenly my father and big bro came back. Then we suddenly became refugees and started bathing in places where got taps while exploring the ruined buildings. Wierd... jus hope that it will stop.

Another dream bout the Os was 2 days ago that again! CL results in the hall i got a F9 while every1 passed. SO IRRITATING!!!!!!!

Juz hope to stop dreaming.

My National Day plan

Hmm... my national day plan. I intend to feast myself and watch NDP on TV. So sad, no tickets. NDP without tickets to me isnt national day. Potato chips, cookies and milk... Anyway again nothing happened in school today. Just couldnt study but kept reading books and then play catching with Kh, Yx, Zi hao, Quang. but other than that, nothing much 2day.

Tiring and dumb day

3 Tests in a row, who isnt tired? CH always spoil my mood. Then another irritating thing that irks me is the CCA thing. All based on attendance and participation? CRAP! SQ and others got B3 for staying in scouts for so many years while China? just 2 or 3 years make them A1 or 2. And what about band? Everyone got E8 including Malcom just for going band 3 times a week for 8 or 9 hours a day. Even Quang who has no CCA gets same as us... how fair.... Anyway, A is not possible for me cuz i escaped band for abut 1 month.....

Lifes all bout likes and dislikes and also being bias. Hate u, fail you regardless of the so-called meritocracy.

Wondering, what it is all about... life... for mine that is....

Sianz.....

So busy liao.... very little time to blog. So many test and then...... PE lessons are BORING. After math remedial, saw the 2 triangular parties talking to each other outside sch gate. Wonder how i would feel if i were him....I might probably hantam the other party.

Life's Boring!!!!

Sianz....

Another day... started on my time table. Xinmin knows the 1/2 abSinC by the ther party. Wonder what Quans part 2 is......