Sunday, August 31, 2008

31 August, End of the month

Ok. So i'll say what my whole class would say if each of them had a blog. EXAMS over. Kinda ironic, when before exams, every1 mugging so hard and wish that holidays will come. Yet when holidays are here, i feel kinda bored. Not sure how im gonna spend 1 month + of sch holiday. Not gonna work cuz i got other plans.... well.... not to say very exciting ones but not spending whole day playing com or PSP that i borrowed for Chest. Anyways, ya.... exams are over and waiting for results. Juz hope dun drop alot like sem 1 cuz sem 1 my results are kinda suicidal and a bad way to end the semester. Sem 2 was quite a dream come true 1. I understand why i was "flamed" in yr 1 sem 1 and i guess if others had my kind of studying attitude, i'll "flame" them too. So i guess reflect upon urself before u reflect others.

Elijah and his 2 "pals", Denise and Peggy left for aussie ( i think so) today for overseas ITP. Good thing didnt tell my parents or they will make me go at knifepoint. I wont go for sumthing that will drain my "hard earned" holidays and not contribute to my grades but well, learning is good exp but im not prepared to learn what i think i might forget even though going there may be unforgettable. Anyways, wish them 3 a safe journey and great learning trip as well as um.... "GREAT" time...... Oh Naziah too i think going sumwhere for ITP but forget where. Wish her the same likewise.

Im going to KL once again and to langakawi the very next day. Well to be truthful i dun wanna spent too long a time there as its kinda 'sian'. Not cuz of ppl around you but of the things to do around you. Hope sum1 can rescue me from the disease of boredom this holidays. PSP and laptop doesnt always help! Im not that much as a computer fanatic that my brother has 'spread' around bout me, i can dun touch the laptop for almost 1 week and i proven it last week. Thats cuz of EXAMS!!! Well, every exam last time i always play sum games on com before going for exam. I rmb playing Kingdom Hearts on com desperately trying to complete it before my E-MATH paper II for 'O' lvls started. See how 'prepared' i was???

Im back to before once again. Praying to God before my exams and then stop after it. See how "spiritual" i am??? Gotta do sumthing bout myself but i also dun wan to do things out of chore. Apart from that i feel kinda normal again. Church camp this year is the same at last year. Same place and all. Dun feel like going back there to the same place cuz i prefer sumthing different. And it seems like over the 3 years, length of church camp stay increase from 3 days 2 nights to bout 5 days and 4 nights. Sumhow getting longer and longer. I always try escaping from testimonial night cuz i feel its atmosphere and aura given by people is very thick and scary. Not becuz of feeling convicted but becuz if ur chosen, u feel super lost. Anyways, i hope to improve being a Christian cuz i find at times i dun feel like one.

Lets add in sumthing new each time i end my post.

Quote of the day: Look into the mirror before you have others face it.
Meaning: Reflect before judging others.

Saturday, August 09, 2008

Mood: MIXED thoughts


On my murder list:

- MJF (Most wanted! Shud have whack u more when bee fly on u)
- Mukkesh (DUN ACT LIKE U NOT INVOLVED!!!!)
- Farhan (May u grow a sting on ur a**)
- Elijah (Drop ur camera hp on floor!)
- Ryan (May u laugh till u replace ur lung with plastic bag)
- SURESH AHMAD (SHould have tied ur bag to the railing with a lock last week)
And YOU GUYS KNOW WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!! I see that pict im going berserk!!!! I tore it up hoping i'll never see it again and this was what they did and again you all know why. You guys make my thursday crazy!!!! ARGGGG!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! but its kinda fun!
OK. back to End sem exam. Really going cuckoo over it. Oh its national day now. i've got some national day resolutions. I wasnt in a good mood today for 2 reasons during FMB presentation. I really screwed this module to no end, i guess its gg for me in this module and chem react but im praying hard i wont go all the way down. My dling is wasting my time and i juz realised im addicted to it. I wanna study so pls dun bother me!!! laptop!!! I hate my laptop for distracting me. IM chionging env now like siao so pls dun distract me. Im really stricken with fear and have dreams that i go for exam without studying. Thats the worst dream. Dun wan my GPA go below 3.5 or 6. Heard that ppl around that score cant even go U for nuts and i wont take my degree anywhere on earth except SG so i will type my NATIONAL DAY RESOLUTION.
I have really backslidedden in my faith and im trying so hard to not fall out. Total of 20% is holding me towards my faith due to parents, frens, and my "spiritual" conscience. I dun really wan this to leak out but those who read this pls dun mention it to others. I really dunno what happen to me.... i feel so hopeless that i wanna knock my head sumwhere. Is this what u call divine punishment?
NATIONAL DAY RESOLUTION
1) GPA not below 3.7
2) Renew my faith (IMPT)
3) Control my words, thoughts, actions & speech
4) Train myself in gym with a little tutoring of cuz.
5) Complete Silent Hill game on PSP after exam without freaking.
Boku wa akiramenai! (I wont give up!)