The tired me

OK... things are sailing along quite smoothly in school and all. I hope i wasnt too offensive in my previous post cuz the last thing i wanna do is to offend people on my blog. Basically, sch juz the same as ever just that i find time for 1st sem yr 2 passes fast. In a blinking of an eye my MST is over, and it comes down to my last practical of all my modules and soon exam. Maybe before i know it, im already in NS. Better "enjoy" poly life while i can.

So here am i doing my practical 'formal' report. Anyways, i m trying to plan out my time so i can do other things b4 exam starts. Juz as what my title says, im tired. Not tired of life but tired of school cuz of my lessons and stuff like that. Exams are coming soon, gotta give my all and do my best. Im sure every1 in my class also quite stressed up over here and there. Especially Mr Mukkesh. His CCA and club stuff take up time, summore he do the most things for each group work and he still can top the class. Hes DCHE 2B/21 's 好榜样!!!

Gotta chiong sum of my reports. Feel like going to sleep now. Got not much of a choice either way. Gotta sleep early if not sleep in lecture class again. Sumhow, I always tio sleep spell cast by sum unnknown wizard or sumthing such that when i go Env engineering class always manage to sleep. Oh... tmr's class starts at 10. Can at least sleep abit later.

Plans after Exam: Ask Zihao to train me in gym. almost half a year never go liao. Im so analytical. Think so far ahead when havent even finish exam.

Guess what??? im blogging once again after such a long time. In just 3 months or so which is the last time i blogged, so many things happened. So many things just revolve around me. So many things make me happy and sad. Well... i guess these 2 emotions are what life mainly has to show you. Things in school are turning for the worse. Well, i guess just have to blame myself for the analytical, melancholic side of me. Ever heard of the anime Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya??? Its the top anime in the industry for 2006 or 2007... cant rmb but anyway, everything about this show is like what its title depicts. MELANCHOLIC. Even fantasy or such are associated with this temperament. It thought me what a VERY melancholic person really is.


Back to time travel. 3 weeks to prepare for MST. So what did I do? 1st week rupture my toe from a soccer match which we lost so badly due to only 1 practice match and breaking our defensive formation and no stamina. Did a very relaxed study on the first week.

Second week, attended a church camp in which i had bad sleep due to trumpeting alarms in the middle of the night, and i was preached Romans 3:23 by a Japanese guy who attended my camp (one which i wont forget) but i still enjoyed my camp overall. I also went on a holiday to Batam which i found my hotel room rather spooky. Why?? I dun really feel like saying but for curiosity sake of readers i will say. Passage and corridors remind me of the silent hill game i play. My room was very nice but spooky due to the belcony. My belcony was just another room with no windows but walls and guess wad??? A cracked portion on the belcony floor as if someone dropped a bowling ball in. If say i was sleeping and someone were to knock on the belcony door, i will straight away run out of the hotel and sleep on the streets. I bought a nice white cap which now i think it looks like a bus driver cap.

Third week, desperately studying for MST to make up for the time wasted. Overall, i did below my expectations for MST esp 1 module but i wont give up! Boku wa Akiramenai!!! I will jiayou all the way for my exams.


Anyways, i had a really really bad week this week. I feel so horrible that i feel i've really changed since secondary school inwardly. I swear in my heart when things dun go the way i want it to be. I got screwed up for my practical when it was impossible to screw, straight after that, i spilled a ice shaked that Ryan treated me to seeing i had a bad day on myself summore making every1 at FC1 laugh at me. whats worse that my lesson was until 5pm an i spilled in the morning. I smelt of peach in the lecture room for 4 hours. Asking Elijah & Ryan to dry my jeans while i hide in the cubicle got me disturbed by all the boys in my class since they all in toilet. For example, Jk wanted to run away with my jeans, JW tried to climb over the cubicle to get a snapshot with his phone, the rest of guys making a scene in toilet. Ironically, it cheered me & made me feel less unhappy.

Wm and Kl got a warning letter for escaping gems. That would have been me if i pon gems this wed. Thankfully, i didnt due to some unknown force in my mind instructing me not to. I dread going for gems class since i dun like to see ppl i dun like to see esp those who spoil my mood. Lessons are rather interesting though since its a Lawless lawyer lecturing us and his stories are rather enjoyable.

Well well. SO what exactly is pressuring me? I'll say now. Assignments, reports, practicals, and its because every module i've got those nonsensical assignments that i cant spend enough time studying and exam is only less then 1 month away. I dun wanna juz do well to be the best but i just want to do up or beyond my expectations to be happy even if im last in class. Also, class internal problems also affects me (Try not to ask me this). Thankfully i poured abit of my problems to WS which i felt better after doing so if not i'll go crazy like the Korean guy who shot every1 down. Im thankful to have classmates who care for me even if they still bully me. :)

Im still brooding over things i should not but well. This is a blog where i pour my heart to. My parents care for me but they dun really understand me or how i think. I also dun want to bother them too much as they have their own problems. I've also started wondering if im a Christian or not. I ask myself so many qns that are impossible to ans as long as im on the earth. I hope i will tide over all this peacefully.

Just feel like being left alone for a day to reflect on myself. Im feeling rather down, doubtful and curious on my beliefs. I wont blog them in case they get read by unexpected ppl who discover my blog. Forgive me for my "emo" attittude but i guess this really is the true me. Isnt it????