Still sad

Haiz..... i felt im 1 of the worst... so many got better than I. 1 less subject for L1R5..... if i cant manage other subjects well..... im a goner. Had a little oral practice 2day then went for tuition. I feel theres no more time but i dunno what to do... Im still at a loss but my mum says my CL results are gd enough to get to JC. How to count such a huge no. in L1R5? Very Afraid of the prelims too cuz if i get higher than 19, im gonna lose hope in the Os and ppl who never see me cry b4 may get a chance to do so......

Really pushing myself hard...