Im seriously mentally exhausted, going retarded soon. What do I do when im retarded, going nuts and siao?

Warning: DO NOT BUY THIS LAMP FROM IKEA + DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME!! (FIRE HAZARD!!!!)

If u cant see this, tell me and i will try to reupload. Uploading takes a freaking long time.......

Tools used: An 11 year old study lamp from IKEA + Sisscors + my hands....